Walking behind

Being a wife has been such a learning process for me, and today brought a sweet lesson. Every time Andrew gets more information about schools, about scholarship, and about jobs I start thinking. I start trying to guess how these pieces of information will effect Andrew's decision. I start trying to anticipate what will happen, where we will go, and how I can plan for it. And then comes the anxiety, the frustration, the unrest. Andrew sat me down today and asked me to do a few things. First, to know and believe that he is trusting the Lord with this decision. Second, to respect him in believing that he will make a decision. And third, to give up the burden I keep trying to take on to make things happen. Andrew is my leader, and I must learn to be a good follower. Not one who keeps trying to anticipate his direction and get there first. Following well for me means to keep my eyes on Andrews steps, and come behind. Going where he goes, trusting the Lord to lead him as he leads us. And to walk humbly behind. It is the same way in following the Lord. That we must not try and anticipate the will of God or decide what we think he will do. But walk humbly as He leads. And there anxiety fades, burdens are lightened, the way is clear. Simply follow in faith, walking quietly behind.